It been like long time never chat

Is think like a new day will be a great day. Is think like yesterday's problem today can settle. However, the lucky won't follow me. 2015 not a nice year. 

Today just can staying inside my room for the whole day. Dun feel like wanna chat with someone, dun feel like go out, dun feel like compromise... I just feel like I'm very damn freaking tired. My mind so mess, always think what I wan to say before text with you. It is too hard to think, not I dun wan chat, is I'm lazy to chat to quarrel to think more. Just let's us relax and give both of us some space to breath.

A song that suitable for my feeling : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K311Pa8mF_I     

Black Tuesday

Day 60. Today is our 2 month memorial day. But it was a bad day. We almost quarrel but we never mean it. I try to control myself to prevent my emotion so I dun wan text anymore. You never retrieve me and ask what's going on some more. I totally broken heart le thousand timessss!! Start from TODAY I will never ever take seriously to manage you, I will let you go anywhere you wan without mine permission. I will let you do what you wanna to do even smoking. I edi very tired to quarrel and fight with you. DO YOU WHAT YOU WANT TO DO. Dunno this war when can end, I really very scare about the moment we quarrel. Last time we not a couple while I angry you will text a long long message to me but now is NOTHING. I just wan to preserve our relationship and never give up for that.